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Getting my life back to together?

Question by Jordan N: Getting my life back to together?
Ok, this is my old account because I lost my other ones password. I look at my questions from two years ago (when I was 13) and the worst I was doing was drinking a few beers and smoking ciggarettes (bad enough I know), my priorities were buying clothes, college, dating, saving money for a car,,, I’m 15 now, during the year of fourteen thats when it all went bad…
I started smoking pot, on occasion, nbd…. Then I took vicodins and xanax bars sometimes, then I started doing coke at parties, then I started taking shrooms alot, then a few E rolls, then, my downfall OxyContin, started snorting em, got addicted, did heroin a few times, I’ve kicked because I wasn’t a hardcore junkie but I still get cravings every day. I smoke pot so much I don’t even get stoned, I smoke when I get up so I can talk to people, I smoke during the day cause I’m bored and I crave the smoke taste, I smoke a lot at night just to get buzzed enough to sleep, I can’t stop its all around me, even my parents smoke… Only problem is I’m on probation, and get piss tested a lot, and I fail, and I’m probably going to jail tommorow for my fifth failed test. I want my old self back, the Jordan that cared so much about his appearance, that always had at least fifty bucks on him cause he saved his money, the Jordan that didn’t know about things like Arrest Warrants and Probation Officers, about begging to cop Oxys, and so on and so forth, the Jordan that was so proud that he lost 150 lbs that he watched his diet and took pride in himself, now I’m the shell of my old self, I’m pale, I’m broke, I look like crap, I’m gaining weight again because I stopped caring cause I was so f@cked up half the time and just ate what was in front of and now can’t control myself anymore, I just want some damn euphoria of some sort! I want to stop smoking pot, start saving my money, start getting trust back, get off probation, get back on track with school (which I got expelled from for being an a$$ when I was messed up), start looking good, and caring about other things then drugs, getting money for drugs, thinking about drugs, talking about drugs, worrying about failing drug tests, etc etc etc.
I want to be able to live a life where I don’t have to worry about money all the time, don’t look like a soulless fat shell, where every so often I can smoke pot and enjoy it instead of being dependent, I feel so weak, so gross, WHAT DO I DO TO GET THE OLD ME BACK? I never even realized how bad it was until today when I logged on to this old account and realized what my priorities were like two years ago.. I’m in tears, I’ve ruined my life, established a rep as a druggie and lost all my goals, and I even let my greatest pride, that I conquered obesity, fly out the door….
I’m in therapy, doesn’t help, I’m gonna get meds when I go to the shrink, but I doubt they’ll help, they never do…
I have a rap sheet as long as War and Peace now, I feel like my life is ruined…

Thing is, everyone, EVERYONE I know is connected to the drug world, everyone.

My best friend, all my other friends (the clean friends I had years ago were smart got away from me), my parents, everyone in my life…

I need to know how to live not a straightedge life, but a clean life where drugs are not the priority, but school, dating, how I look is, y’know? I’ve lost out on the normal teenage expierience so much, I don’t remember anything about losing my virginity except it was in a car with a person I barely knew, I don’t go to school, I dont date, who wants to date a former junkie and a pothead loser? I wear old clothes with cig burns on them and pants three sizes too tight, not because I’m broke, but because every penny I get goes to drugs, seriously this is lame

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Answer by Devika
i hav nt read ur ques properly
but i just want to say pleeaase avoid drugs and smoking
it will kill u

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Q&A: if you could live a day of a meth addict then the next day your back to normal would you do it?

Question by Chris Chris: if you could live a day of a meth addict then the next day your back to normal would you do it?
like just say you could be a meth addict or a heroin addict for a day and feel there pain and what its like to be a junkie but then the next day you wake up and you are back to yourself with full memory about what it was like would you try it????
Personaly i would and if your wondering why i say why not :)

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Answer by pepper the gangsta cat
I would probably kill myself if I was a heroin addict. They suffer so much when they become addicted.

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Q&A: Why did my GF cheat on me and got pregnant? Take her back?

Question by hunter849: Why did my GF cheat on me and got pregnant? Take her back?
My GF wanted me to get her pregnant. I asked her to wait a few months until after I received my promotion at work and saved up enough $$$ to buy her a ring, take her and her grandparents to Vegas for a quick wedding, and to so I could make arrangements for the baby (get an apartment in a nicer neighborhood).

My promotion would pay me ,000-,000 per year. I saved up ,000 with the help of my family members b/c my GF was unemployed for 1 1/2 years.

She then saw her ex-BF and became pregnant by him. He told her to get an abortion and b/c she was desperate for a baby, she refused. He now refuses to return her phone calls or text messages and doesn’t want anything to do with her or the baby.

She said she wanted a baby b/c: “I hate my family -that’s why I want a baby, so I can have a family of my own to love.”

The reason her family “hates” her is b/c one of her sister’s accused her (my GF) of sleeping with her husband.

My GF also spent the night at my best friend’s house but she claims “nothing happened” but my best friend called her an “alcoholic” and a “wh.ore” and said I should “move on from her”.

My GF cheated on her ex-BF when she was with him on a regular basis with her 1) friend with benefits and 2) a man she referred to as her “f*ckbuddy” and she also slept with her friend with benefits’ roommate one time.

I really do love her but I wish she would change. What can I do to help her? She wants a man in her life to help take care of her and her baby.

What did I do wrong for her to do this to me?

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Answer by &♥;
You did nothing wrong, she’s a hoe.
Don’t involve yourself in her problems…

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How do I get my mother to back off?

Question by Jenny: How do I get my mother to back off?
I’m getting married in less than a month. My fiance and I have decided to have his father stand for him and my mother stand for me. We’re going to the courthouse and we really REALLY don’t want a long drawn-out ceremony and a big dinner afterward. He and I both really wanted this to be quick and easy. We want to be married… not show everyone how much money we can spend going all out. Plus, neither of us are religious at all.

The problem: my mother claimed to understand what we wanted and agreed it was a great idea. Now, as the day draws closer she’s pushing me to get a dress, get married in her boyfriend’s house, invite everyone we know, hire a caterer, and everything you can think of along those lines.

I am an only child and I know she cares and is getting excited… but this is MY wedding. I’ve made my wishes clear and every time I assert myself she sounds disappointed and I can’t help but try to think of a compromise… and I’m really not interested in compromising to be honest. Every time I talk to her she adds another “decision” she’s made to my plate. I’m getting stressed and it’s only getting worse. I’m finding it hard to keep in mind that getting married is supposed to be one of the best/happiest experiences life has to offer.

I’m at the end of my rope. I want things back to the way I originally intended on having them. What worse is that she keeps pushing me to tell and invite my father. I’ve only started speaking to him recently after almost nine years of not knowing him. I do intend to tell him… but I need to tell him when I’m ready without the added pressure.

In sum, instead of being excited, I’m starting to dread each passing day leading to the inevitable anxiety inducing nightmare that lies ahead.

In addition, my mother is a severe alcoholic. If I assert myself to her she will use that as an excuse to get drunk and say I have no regard for her… and if I have a big dinner on our big day she’ll most definitely get drunk then too. I’ve stopped celebrating holidays because I can’t have her in my home with others and alcohol. She’s a manipulative, aggressive drunk… and she doesn’t think she has a problem. I just don’t know what to do.
I should also mention she’s insisting she pay for every little thing… no matter what she brings up she tells me to just do it and she’ll pay so I don’t have to worry about the expense. It’s not about the expense – I don’t care about costs… I just want to marry the love of my life and be the wife he deserves :)
As far as her being an alcoholic – I have been dealing with more than her alcoholism my entire life. I have been through many years of counselling. Not getting married is definitely not the answer.

I already know it’s not my fault that she drinks… and I’ve already put a stop to all communication with her a couple of times lasting over a month at a time.

To be blunt, it’s extremely embarrassing when she gets drunk while I’m entertaining. I want her to be there because I love her and I would prefer to include her in gatherings, but as always, she’ll get drunk and completely discredit herself in every way imaginable.

My hubby-to-be is very supportive of my decisions to establish and enforce boundaries – I just don’t want to have to do that coming up to my wedding… eloping sounds better and better you know :)

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Answer by ○Lun○
I’m gonna flirt with your mom and ask her out. That should keep her out of your hair.

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How do I get my boyfriend’s mom to back off? She doesn’t like me but pretends to. Shes fake in a cruel way.?

Question by ASmartBlonde: How do I get my boyfriend’s mom to back off? She doesn’t like me but pretends to. Shes fake in a cruel way.?
(Sorry this is so long,im just worked up)

My boyfriends mother doesn’t like me even tho she pretends to. She constantly sends me texts pretending to be nice to get information out of me. She’s also made rude comments about women with large breast infront of me (I have big boobs) She says that women with large breats always sleep thier way top the top of the corporate world, among other comments. She is flat chested. And I guess in the past my bf says she used to ant to get breast implants. I’m blonde, thin, 21, and sometimes I model. I sing very well. I guess a natural talent. I was in advanced choir in high school and got every solo I tried for. I work right now as a waitress at a club. I work hard at my job, even if its just a waitressing job. My boyfriend hurt his back/hip and hasn’t had a job in years but makes lots of money with his side jobs. He went to college for business and computers. Shes 54, shes kind of attractive for her age, tall, thin but has a thick mid section, shes never been to college and her husband owns a business she does the booking for. She lives in a cute but dated home. Always clean. Shes always been a stay at home mom. My boyfriends father also owned a contruction business she did the booking for.I have nothing against house moms but my mom works 12 hr days and hes the primary provider in her hoursehold. My dad is a deat beat(dont know him)and I think coming from a broken home bothers my bfs mom. I’ve talked to her about it and I used to think she sided with me. I used to tell her everything. My boyfriend is her first son,30, and she has another son, 25. Her younger son doesnt really work if he does its for his stepdad.. and he models, his mom pays the photographer to take pics of him if u want to call that modeling/and he has had many singing lessons but cannot sing. He thinks hes going to be an actor. He even moved to LA once and his mom paid for rent and he came back after a few months. Her husband, (my bf’s stepdad) has his own landscapping biz, and is an alcoholic who also makes rude comments and jokes around alot. One time he came after me pretty rude on thankgiving and he has never apoligized for that to me. Only to my bf. My boyfriends mom actually tried to tell my boyfriend I was the one being rude in a voice mail and two sec. later left my a voice mail saying she was sorry for what happend.Me and my boyfriend were laying by eachother when this happend. There are many stories like this/ but she continues to want to be close with me and nice to me and I dont understand why. I just want her to back off. I dont know what to say or do without being rude.
The comments they make may seem unintentional at first, but I caught on pretty quick. They watch everything I say and do and laugh and joke about it. She will always take us out to dinner. She spends lots of money on buying my boyfriend gifts, anything he wants pretty much..like 2,000$ gift cards, furniture, anything..and she will buy me gifts also. I’m thankful for the dinners, and gifts dont get me wrong but i can’t help but I think theres something behind it. At first we got along really well but something changed. I think shes only being nice to me to get info about me about my bf.. She will use things I say against me later. She will twist things I say into something different so my bf will get upset with me. She gossips alot about others misfortunes. I thought she was my friend. She said i was like a daughter to her. My bf doesn’t really talk with her directly and hes kind of a private person. So she pretty much uses me. Shes going thro menopause now and gets really emotional, and bitchy. When we go out she will always make comments about my clothes, my hair, and always asks me how I eat so much and stay thin. She eats like a bird and obsesses over weight, and I love food. So does my bf. My bf was a picky eater but since hes been with me he will try all different kinds of foods and like them. i can tell it bothers her. I dont know why. She will say things like “ew, sea food is gross” and I “can’t believe jimmy likes that I could neer make him eat that when he was little”
His grandparents (her parents) live with her. his grandfather is sick with cancer and probably wont be around much longer. his grandmother is a sweet lady but for a while now she also makes comments and it hurts. I feel like my bf’s mom is talking crao about me to his entire family and now they are all in on this. I love my boyfriend and I hate that all of this is happening. Sometimes I feel like I have to say comments back to defend myself.. but I never want to be rude.

We just moved into a new place and she keeps pushing to come and see the place when we’re not ready. I think its because of what happend on thankgiving two yrs ago. we were 20 min late because we went to my familys house (only for a half hour) when we had to spend over 7 hours at her house. Like my family wasn’t as important. When we walked in everyone had thier fo

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Answer by Wank4Jesus
wtf I’m not reading all that.

-5 points for you
+2 for me!

Suck it

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Q&A: My girlfriend just dumped me and I feel worse than heroin withdrawal. I might go back to the needle again.?

Question by X X: My girlfriend just dumped me and I feel worse than heroin withdrawal. I might go back to the needle again.?
I am 18 and have been using heroin off and on since I was 14.

Anyway, my girlfriend of 3 years just dumped me out of the blue for another guy who is wealthier and more attractive and all around superior to me in every way.

This girl and I lost our virginity to each other at age 15 and she is my everything. We said we’d get married have two daughters a nice house the whole nine yards american dream. We complete each other.

Every since the day I saw her in the hall at school when we made eye contact for the first time to the first time we had sex and after the sex was over we just laid in each others arms awake all night in a euphoric memorized blissful state. It was the best night of our lives.

Now, after all the time, money, love, and emotions I have invested in her I’m getting hit like Wall Street on Black Tuesday.

I have been slamming heroin off and on for as long as I can remember, and I’ve been through some pretty shitty withdrawals, but this absolutely takes the cake. I’ve never been suicidal before when detoxing from H but losing this girl makes me want to kill myself. The depression is absolutely unbearable. I have no self-confidence anymore and nothing matters at all. I feel worthless and I want to die.

I think I’m going to go back to the needle and use again to get that euphoric rush that I can no longer have naturally, which will replace the unbearable pain with pure pleasure.

I don’t want to be addicted again though, I don’t know what to do.

That girl was like a drug to me, and the withdrawal was hell. And the worse part is I can’t control her. If I want her back, I can’t have her. At least with heroin, I am in control and if I decide I want it back in my life, I can have it.

Help me. I don’t know what to do. I’m a depressed junkie either way, with this girl or drugs, doesn’t matter.

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Answer by APPLEPIE x3
when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along

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Is my boyfriend drinking behind my back ? help plea?

Question by carly b: Is my boyfriend drinking behind my back ? help plea?
Ok my boyfriend gave up alcohol nearly 3 weeks ago after years of drinking everyday. he substitutes it with non alcoholic lager ( Kaliber ).
When he got home from work today we had a quick chat and i asked him to watch the kids whilst i went shopping, So i got home i was out for 1 hour and 10 mins. He came across to me clearly drunk, he kept walking into the wall was very angry, and i know him when hes drunk after being with him for many years. Now he denys having drinking alcohol and says hes not drunk well shouts it at me with abuse. Told me to smell his breathe i cant smell anything, but he clearly seems drunk, can anyone tell me what they think ??

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Answer by where my party ppl at? <3
i think he might be but maybe u should have himgoing to a clinic.. take urine tests and that sort of thing..

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alcoholic husband back to drinking but denying it?

Question by dolphingirl1971: alcoholic husband back to drinking but denying it?
He said he didnt think to pour it out, and he hid it so noone would think it was his. My son also asked me why do I think he comes home chewing gum. its to get rid of the smell. My husband can’t smoke inside his work, so he says he chews gum when he can’t smoke. I asked him why come home chewing it when you can smoke, he said he guessed he liked chewing it. The part of me that believes he isnt drinking is because he was a very violent and aggressive drunk, and I’ve not seen that lately. We have had some arguments but not like before. And when he drinked, he never drinked whiskey or liquor, only beer. My son suspects he’s drinking stronger alcohol to get drunk quicker. My husband’s daughter and sister even suspect he’s drinking. I know I should believe my son also, but I have not found anything to suspect from my husband. What should I do? My son is his stepson. I thought my husband was going on 9 months sober. Please help me.

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Answer by poopykins81
You should set down and talk to him and let him know your concerns, you’re his wife, you deserve the truth. My husband is also an alcoholic, he hasn’t had a drink in about 7 months, he’s on house arrest right now for 6 months bc of his drinking, he also has to wear a alcohol monitor and he’s not allowed to drink. He says once he’s off he’s getting plastered and I’m so scared of what’s going to happen. I’m so tired of getting calls from the cops and his cheating when he drinks. He got the last girl pregnant and I’m so scared. It’s very hard to deal with especially with 2 small kids and our daughter is old enough to know what will happen if daddy drinks. She says she don’t want him to drink bc he’ll go to jail. Being married to an alcoholic is the hardest thing in the world!

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do you believe that PhilAnselmo started doing Heroin due 2severe back pain, or …?

Question by TAFKAM: do you believe that PhilAnselmo started doing Heroin due 2severe back pain, or …?
…or is it just a typicall lame junkie xcuse. I have had same problems(heroin addiction) , but I admitted I started doing it ’cause I was jaded, and now I’m on Methadone Maintainance treatment 4 seven years, and being addicted to Methadone is a much more severe and togher ordeal than Heroin addiction, xcept here in Croatia MMT is free of charge, and U take it orally, so you’re kinda’disease protected. Nevertheless, I feel guilty towards me, my family, friends…I must, can,. and will ‘save ‘my life by lowering my dosages(a year ago , iI was taking 115mgs daily, noew I’m on 80 mgs daily)…I wrote this nabout me, just for you to take it more seriously…iguess…and…it gets lonely, I find it helpfull 2 share.
A big hug from Croatia, please don’t label and stigmatise ne because of my honesty

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Answer by Derail
I commend you on your honesty. And your trying to change. I don’t know who Phil Anselmo is. But it sounds like an after thought excuse for heroin. However, I don’t know the guy. I was out of work for 19 months due to a back injury, and the pain that went with it. But it never occurred to me to start heroin. That would turn one big problem (my back), in to two big problems, by adding a very addictive drug. Anyway, stay your course, and hope the best for ya.

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Q&A: My mother had a stroke and is back to drinking.?

Question by Norma: My mother had a stroke and is back to drinking.?
My mother has been an alcoholic my entire life. Im 30. She can go very long lengths of time with out drinking, sometimes years. My father passed away 2 years ago and her drinking got real bad. She stopped again a few months ago and went through severe withdraws. She was in ICU for 8 days. She could have died. Last month she had a stroke. Her doctor said it was unrelated. As far as the stroke she is ok. Going through physical therapy and all. My son told me today that he found beer cans in her room. He said he touched them and they were still cold. She is on alot of medication. She told me she went back on antidepressants, but I don’t think she did. But I’m more worried than before that the drinking is going to kill her even quicker. I know that her medication and alcohol is horrible for her body, especially on her liver. I don’t know how to approach her with the subject. I’ve tried so many times in the past. The even sadder part in all this. She can’t drive. So I know it’s my brother that is bringing her the beer. I will talk with him. I’m just not sure how to talk to her. Or do I send her to rehab? But if she isn’t ready for help, then it won’t work but just for a little while.

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Answer by LaReina de Todo
I drank long enough and hard enough that I ruptured my esophagus and nearly bled to death internally. I also had to have a shunt put into my liver because it was about to shut down. I have now been sober for eight years. People who drink are in unbearable pain. Something devastating has happened to them or they think they have screwed up so badly that it can never be fixed. A lot of it dates back for years. They feel worthless, and don’t think anyone cares about them. Here is what I wish someone had done for me.

When your mother is as close to sober/unmedicated as she gets, sit down and talk to her. Tell her how you are dying inside watching her hurt herself. Tell her how much you love her (even if maybe right now you don’t, just say it). Try to recall good times you have had with her, and how happy it made you both. If she has grandchildren, tell her you would hate for them to grow up not knowing her. Tell her that you don’t know how best to help her, and ask what SHE thinks you should do. Tell her almost everything is fixable. If she tells you to leave her alone, say that you refuse to do it. Tell her you simply can’t stand by and watch her kill herself. You say you have tried to approach her in the past, and I know it is difficult. But once you start talking, the right words will come out. Tear your brother a new @sshole and threaten him with anything you have if he continues to bring her alcohol. If you could get him involved in the talk, all the better. If not, put on your big-girl panties and do it yourself. You will regret it if you don’t.

I wish you all good things in this endeavor.

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